Quiet Time

Well… I’m failing at blogging… ugh!  It’s really on my heart to do it though! There a few bloggers that I follow and man I wish I can write like them! They are so inspiring and gifted….Wow! Just from their writings I can see how humble they are, how down to earth, how funny, how sincere, how grateful, how lovely, and that they are truly “God’s Girl”. Dang it! Anyways, Have I mention that India is right around the corner? EEKK! I am getting so excited. Lord, I trust and believe that great things are in store for me as well as the team! So, as India approaches I am trying to press into God. I find myself getting distracted lately… I also find myself that I have to drag myself into God’s presence which saddens me. I am happy to know though that God is faithful and his grace is new daily. I love the song Take My Life by Third Day! Every time I listen to it pierces right through my heart, man it shatters me. So, as I prepare myself for this journey I can across something online that I was intrigued by.... 5 disciplines and 5 challenges in 5 weeks. The series already happened but I wanted to know what kind of disciplines and challenges so I kept on reading more and more. One thing that really stood out as I was reading that God doesn’t command us quiet time daily. Some of the examples that she mentioned where:

~Jesus got alone early in the morning with God to pray. (Mark 1:35)

~Daniel – a tenacious man of discipline – prayed three times a day – morning, noon and night. (Daniel 6:10)

~David – the writer of the Psalms – poured out his heart to God in all seasons of life – morning, noon, night, in times of fear, weakness, sadness, joy and delight. (from http://womenlivingwell.org/category/quiet-times/)

I like this. I like that I can commune with God whenever/however as long as I am clinging to him. I like Courtney style of writing. Its easy to read and I get it.  I like how she mentions that we are consumed with distraction in this world. We live in a society that is fast paced, with fast food, and good ol’ face book. Facebook is a whole different topic for me. Why is that I check facebook more than I check in with God’s word? God himself? A small conviction is starting to grow within me. I am curious how much time I spend online. I wonder? Hmmm. Perhaps I’ll do a little experiment on it and see and blog about it. Anyways, back to seeking/spending time with God. I wonder if anyone else struggles with this? I am sure some do. However, I hate that there are seasons where I’m eating/breathing/living like Jesus (trying to that is) and then there’s seasons where you feel like well it’s just the Bible I can read it tomorrow…. Then a several days go by. Ugh!  I am thankful that God gives us convictions. I am glad he never forsakes us. I am amazed that he still loves me. I am grateful that he calls me his beloved even though I fail him.  

Scripture verse: Proverbs 3:3

Song choice: Take My Life: Third Day

India Update

Well, let’s face it I haven’t been updating this mission trip- feeling a little guilty! It’s been about 4 months since my very first post! WHOOPS! Anyways, I decided to start again so here it goes…


Jan- I was excited that God has gave me the desire to go but I was scared to travel to a country known for top human sex trafficking, spicy food, stinky people, and just more spices! My soul  is rejoicing but during this month my flesh was tripping out!

Feb- I had a lot of doubt. I remember praying Lord if this is really of you let A,B,C happen and give me the strength to follow through and I’ll D,E,F… well…. I learned when you challenge God he doesn’t just meet your expectations but he goes above and beyond.

March- I sent letters out. Got my Visa ready. Prayed. … saw visions/dreams.. Started to really embrace the fact that I was going.
April- God gave me TWO signs that this is his WILL FOR ME! I remember it was towards the end of the week… I think maybe a Thursday and I was gone from 6am until 10pm… LONG DAY! I don’t drink coffee but I knew I needed something. So, I decided to go to the drive through at Biggby’s on Van Dyke. When placing my order there on the white board on the brick wall said… . “ Daily Trivia! What building in India are you forbidden to fly a plane over?” April 12, 2012. I kind of laughed but was puzzled at the same time. I asked the barista if they change the sign daily… I asked her if they usually have daily trivia… she said yep! I then laughed and said that’s funny I’m going to India in June.  Totally God thing! Then around the same week or so I got a text from TRIVISA that my Visa was accepted. Then it hit me that I’m really going to India. I like goals, I like to plan things……. But I can’t…. all I know is that I’m supposed to go to India. I have complete peace about it. I strongly believe God is growing this desire within me.


May- well may is flying by and I can’t believe it…. I can’t believe that India is pretty much here… I can’t believe I am going to travel across the world. I feel so much excitement to go love on the children. I am ready. Lord, here I am send me. (Isaiah 6)


Today- My soul sings… I want to be there… I am no longer scared… I think I’m ready… I am anxious...I’m diving in with no expectations but ready to receive everything God pours out! I am willing to love on these orphans. I am willing to get stinky, go hungry, be exhausted, to demonstrate Jesus Christ to the ends of the world. I want to be a risk taker. I want to be a catalyst. I want to be an encounter for Jesus the King of Kings. I want to see blind eyes open. I want to see bondage fall off at the name of Jesus! I want to see dry bones living again. I want to see the lame get up and walk.  I want to see hope renewed. I want to see freedom instead of depression. I want to see love instead of hate.


MOST OF ALL I WANT TO RELEASE GOD’S KINGDOM IN INDIA JUNE 2012!!!!!!


Prayer Requests:

My health I have a doc appt early this week. (I was bit by a chigger/tick/ something and having an allergic reaction.)
Personal struggles
My team (about 100 of us are going)
The children we will be interacting with
Safety/protection
Supernatural gifts
Breakthroughs
Wisdom
Unity
Obedience

Song Choice: Jesus Culture: Ready Now
Scripture verse: Proverbs 18:20

Off to India!

I am excited to say that I am going to India this coming summer of 2012. Yep, I am excited little hesitant but I am going out of obedience and trust. Today is 1-18-12 (Wednesday) and earlier in the week through church, music, work, patients, and computer God has laid it upon my heart as well as my mind to go to India. When I first heard to go I was like hmmm how about not. I won’t go—FORGET IT! I was scared for few minutes and tried so hard to ignore the will of God. I have no desire/interest to go to India… perhaps it’s because all I can think about it “spiciness” my stomach flips already just thinking about their culture, food, people, and environment. I was hoping God would say “Hey, I want you to go to Peru this summer with Kari Jobe (one of my favorite singers) and do a conference there!...... ha oh I so wish…. Sigh! Now, that God is burning his will within me I am so excited to go. Every day I have to remind myself not to be fearful of the food, climate, culture etc. Haiti was different… it’s like Detroit- a broken hopeless environment. India- I don’t know what to think really besides I am excited to love on the orphans but not to eat their food- LOL! I like my rice with a little olive oil, salt, and pepper. I like my chicken marinated in Italian dressing and dipped in breadcrumbs. No spices! Even some BBQ sauce is hot for me. On another blog I wrote how I am not exactly thrilled for 2012 because I am going to be stripped raw, vulnerable, naked, sweetly broken, and wholly surrendered. I know going to India I have to fully rely on God for the finances (which is about double compared to my trip to Haiti last year), and honestly just everything especially the smell! Haitians stunk but it not really… it was weird! It was never below 90degrees when we were there but because it’s pretty hot throughout the year it’s like they are use to it and don’t “sweat”! I on the other hand changed my clothes many times throughout the day/week! Eww…  In India I feel like their sweat will be “curry” and that freaks me out! I wonder if God is cracking up right now as I complain about my fears of India. I know he has me for he has carried me this far--- he is faithful. Why am I worrying about the smell of India? Seriously? I need to get a grip! I need to stop dragging out my thoughts about the smell and go pray how to overcome these fears of mine of raising the money, the food, smells, culture, etc. I believe God has a wonderful plan for me to go and be his light. I know he hears my prayers and he answers them. I know he is my beloved so Satan get out of my head! I will not fear the desire upon my heart. I will act in obedience to go and love on the orphans and proclaim the Great I am. It’s going to be a crazy journey but doing the will of God is the most rewarding thing, the most breathtaking experience, the most fun in my life! I am excited to say that this summer of 2012 I will be going to India to help dedicated 7-10 brand new homes for children (12-50 kids per house) rescued from sex trafficking, we will then bring them to the homes and have a celebration. We will pour God’s love on them in abundance; show them the fruit of the spirit, to embrace God’s goodness and his faithfulness. Will you join me on this journey? I hope so because it’s going to be worth wild!

Love, Meghan

Scripture: Galatians 6:6-10

Song choice: Jason Gray: Remind Me Who I am